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Been busy getting ready for my trip tomorrow ! I have to prepare everything today, because we’re leaving at 8 tomorrow to drive to Orlando, fly to Asheville and settle in. I’m really excited ! The next three days are going to be adventurous with me and my mum. We never get to go away together without the children, so this will definitely be a treat. I already feel my anxiety raising though. I always get like this before trips… I’m hoping I’ll be able to sleep ! Eek.
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Got a much needed haircut today ! It’s FIERCEEEE ! (As Tyra would say !) And it feels so much healthier. I am loving how long it’s getting too. Finally gonna have my old hair back(:
Amanda and I bummed today and had many life talks. Although most all of our conversations are about the same topics, we always have different ways of talking about them. It always keeps things interesting !
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IT IS SO HOT OUTSIDE I HATE IT SO MUCH UGH.
My sister has been going to an art camp with her elementary school art teacher. She brought this home today. It’s a canvas painting/interpretation of a picture of me and my sister Allison. I’d say it’s pretty damn good for a beginning artist ! I was impressed(: And slightly honored she chose to paint me… considering we don’t have the best relationship. It was very kind of her !
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I picked up my mom’s new van today ! It’s pretty much the same, except it’s black and clean ! Haha. Amanda and I named him Patrick. He is such a cutie ! And I love him.
I’m getting really excited about my trip to North Carolina. We’re leaving on Friday. I’m finally becoming excited about me being basically forced to go here. It seems like it might actually be okay. The school is small and sweet. The music program is excellent. And Asheville is the number one vegetarian friendly town in the US. So I am excited to see what is in store !
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This was pretty much the only thing I could stomach today… oh the wonders of watermelon !
A groomer came today and shaved Snoopy because it’s so hot outside. He looks really cute ! And I really think he feels a lot better(o:
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Another day with Amanda, being hobos and eating sushi ! We were both craving it badly and had a little sushi/Stickam shuffle party at my casa. But unfortunately, this supposedly good looking , vegetarian sushi gave me food poisoning ! I feel so freaking sick right now. It’s not even funny. This would happen to me. WAAAAAH.
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Woo what another expectedly great day ! My mom called me from the grocery store and told me that her friend had front row tickets to Bret Michaels and Lynyrd Skynyrd, but wasn’t going to use them and wanted to know if I wanted them ! Okay, I don’t care what anyone says, but I love Bret Michaels. He is sexy as fuck. And LS is pretty much a classic, so I loved that I was going to have to opportunity to see them both !
Of course I brought Amanda and I think we both really enjoyed it. The guy in front of us was a nut job, but it kept us entertained for sure. And we pretty much drooled over Bret. Mmmmm.
And this is how cute/sweaty I look at shows. Yum.
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Have had two of these in the past two days. Diet Cherry Limeade is way better than any yuck dairy product at Sonic ! MHMMMM.
Also, my camera ran out of batteries last night. And we have no extras… so pictures for the next few days will be on my shitty poop cellular device !
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Today was finally out of the ordinary. Last night, Chris told me that I could get a shitload of birth control at Planned Parenthood for free. So today I dragged Amanda out of her house and hauled us over there. I’ve been trying to get the pills for a while, but my bitch of a doctor wouldn’t give them to me with a full on gynecological exam. And that wasn’t happening. Although I’m a virgin, I’m going away to college and I hate children… so the last thing I want is to get pregnant if anything were to happen. Therefore, I would like to protect myself, hence my journey to PP.
When I got to see the doctor, she told me I was a great candidate and didn’t need any extra tests and respected my decision to be smart. She was so sweet ! And I found out that she’s moving to Asheville ! So maybe I’ll have a doctor for when I move there(:
Amanda and I spent the rest of the day bumming around. We’re hobos.
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Today was slightly better. We’re starting to figure out this ridiculous college thing. Basically, Belmont didn’t give me enough financial aid, so it’s impossible for us to pay the tuition. It’s outrageously high for an out of state student. It hurts so bad to know that something I worked so hard for is being ripped away from me. My dream. My dream I finally thought would work out, unlike the many other disappointments in my life. But the patterns in my life stay consistent with another crushing disappointment. But, my second choice school offered me a buttload of financial aid, so I will be able to go there. Looks like I’m going to Asheville, North Carolina. Not exactly what I wanted, but it’s really better than staying in Wellington. I guess I’ll just have to work on seeing it as a positive, meant-to-be situation.
Also, I found out that I almost had a car. But I chose an education instead. It really sucks that I have to make a difficult choice like that when undeserving little fucks get cars and educations and nice new clothes and iPhones and what not. I could write so much about that, but I really just can’t. I just feel like I deserve much more for the shit I’ve been through and I just seem to be thrown in more shit. Whatever.
I saw my good friend Chris tonight. We had coffee and he made me feel a little better about my situation. He’s such a sweetheart.
